Tuesday, 10 April 2012
Drs appointment today
Much to my disappointment, I was told today by dr. Verma, who is replacing Dr. Nicholas while he is on holidays, that the chances of my tumor shrinking were really slim as they are using a children's protocol and they can't give me enough drugs to match up to an adults protocol as it would kill me. He said the best we could hope for at the moment is a stable tumor. I retorted by asking him why they were even putting me through this?? And he said because there's always the slim chance it would shrink. My thoughts are still the same.... Why would you put someone through all this if nothing is going to change??? Ugh. I'm utterly disgusted and praying that he is wrong.... I have chemo tomorrow, Thursday and Friday and will have a ct scan on the 23rd to see what has been going on in there and see Dr. Nicholas on the 30th to follow up. If there are no changes, they are thinking they will have to change the chemo protocol. Not willing to extend this any longer than need be, depending on my options I will ask the risks of immediate surgery and make a decision from there.