Friday, 1 February 2013

Lots to say.........

So lets start with the BIG news............. About a month and a half ago, DH and I found out we were expecting...... Last news I ever thought I would be posting I can guarantee.... As you may or may not know, I am very infertile. Both my daughters were conceived on Clomid. On many rounds of Clomid and depressing months of big fat negatives. To be honest, after 5 rounds with the last one, we were ready to give up and the test finally showed up positive!!!! We were happy. Plus doctors said that chemotherapy and radiation would void any hope of further children. We were OK with that, we have 2 beautiful girls, and to top this all off, we were using condoms as extra precaution.... So, you can all imagine the huge curveball that has been thrown at us to start with. Had an ultrasound about 3 weeks ago and baby is doing well and healthy. Very good news... Now as to if we can keep it???? Still up in the air, so positive thoughts and prayers are being requested.... In the department of chemotherapy and radiation, it has been enough time. But with today's new info, we are not sure...Doctor called me today to say biopsy results were in and contrary to what Toronto "assumed" the tumor is not dead...... It is alive and active.... Big punch in the gut there... They are unsure if this type of cancer is hormone sensitive as research has never been done on it due to the fact that children don't get pregnant and have an overflow of hormones, so they do not know if the tumor will start to grow faster or not, I guess we are on a watch and wait....... Argh! You can not believe how frustrated I am with Toronto and the fact that I feel like they are using me as a guinea pig.... How dare they assume things... The only reason the biopsy was done, was because when they told me that they wanted to take me off the narcotics I told them that it would not work because I am still in severe pain. So when I told them that they said that they decided to do more testing "in case" the tumor was still active..... Now Toronto is going back to the drawing board and suggesting and looking into surgery. I am seriously contemplating getting a second opinion, because at this point I feel like I have no reason to trust anything they have said or done.... I realize I am a rare case, but shouldnt they be covering all their bases? And not assuming things????? Anyways.... We are currently at 11 weeks gestation with an expected due date of August 24th.... One week after Princess Megan's birthday.... Lots of big changes happening for is.. maybe a 3rd child.... Kyra will be starting school in September. Possible surgery and maybe even chemo... Who knows what the future holds but seriously praying that things start falling into place and that 2013 is nocer to me than 2012.

Wishing all of you peaceful and happy times and trust me when I say this, never ever miss an opportunity to tell someone you love them.....Look at my situation its rough and when people tell me thry love me it definitely helps me get through the day.. Hopefully i can get my mind to shut off and get some rest.

Priscilla

7 comments:

Elizabeth Nesbitt said...

Love you guys!! xxx

I'm wishing a son on you... I'll be crossing my fingers for a healthy boy. Stay strong. xx

Becci Sundberg said...

OMG! Congrats and {{{hugs}}}. I'm a little stunned. Hope it all works out well and that Toronto puts their A into G and gets you well

Little Home In The Country said...

Oh my WORD! First, CONGRATULATIONS on your pregnancy! What a huge blessing amid all the turmoil and angst. This new child is a beacon of hope and promise for a bright and healthy future for YOU and your family. Big hugs from Alberta :)

J said...

Your journey with all of this is so meaningful for me. I think about you often, with the hopes that you are feeling better sometimes and that a good result is a strong possibility.

My own rare disorder informs me, reminds me of how difficult it makes everything else. I am only one of the people whom you have never met, are holding you in love and hope.

One of the things I have learned from you is to make certain that the people I love know it. Thank you for that.

Priscilla Kelly said...

very well said J. Never miss the opportunity to tell your loved ones what they mean to you. Xoxox. Thank you for your kind words. They mean a lot to me.

Hedy King said...

Goodness, Girl, you certainly don't do things half way, do you? This child seems meant to be. Congratulations. Praying for the best outcome. Sending positive vibes North from Indiana for peace and joy for your family. Hedy

Priscilla Kelly said...

I certainly hope so!!!!!